Crazy

I graduated on Sunday. I think I'm going crazy. I am so sad all of the time. It feels as though nothing in life is fulfilling to me. Boys, friends, grades, activities, work, sleep, eating. I seem to have been bingeing lately and I can't bring myself to really work out. My body is disgusting and I miss treatment. I miss safety. I want to be skinny again. I keep having thoughts. I should be so happy right now. And I am. I am proud of myself for making it this far. I love my family. They were so wonderful. And I love them. I don't know though. I don't know what I want anymore.