When You Can't Tell.

Do you know that feeling when you can't tell if you're doing well or if you're doing poorly? Yeah. I'm in that stage right now.

I really can't tell how I'm doing. I feel like I'm eating and everything, but lately I feel like I've been slowly cutting back so that I'm not eating enough but I didn't even realize it because of the slow decline. It's actually really terrifying because I'm in a weird place. There's also something weird about wanting to just be in treatment. I don't understand it.

But now I'm scared that I'm getting sick and not noticing. I'm scared and I don't know what to do.